Nakakagago pala...

... basahin yung mga post ko sa blog four years ago.

HAHAHAHA LECHE. :)) Bakit ko ba naisipang basahin ang mga yon.

Naloka ako sa puppy-etchos-love story namin ni PersLab. :))

Napapa- "Oo nga noh, ginawa palan namin yun! O_O" ako sa mga nabasa ko.

Lalabas labas pa kami ng 12 midnight a, pakalat-kalat sa loob ng subdivision.

hahaha PU-toot I-toot!!! Nakakatawa na may halong kilig to the bones!

Sakto pa sa mga tugtog sa playlist e, hayoooop.

Oh well, wala nga talagang tatalo sa Unang Pag-Ibig.

Tas maiisip ko bigla,

Kailan nga ba kami huling nag-usap? :-/ Aaaah, nung sinita niya yung status ko sa YM. Wag daw ako mura ng mura. Pangit daw sa isang babae. Woops, sorry pala sa title ng entry na to. Hahaha!

Oooh, sarap. ~

Adult and legal.

I turned eighteen two weeks ago.

Yup, that was on the 4th.

My family and I had my "birthday dinner” somewhere at Hollywood, at 12am up to 1 something in the morning.

I was supposed to be at the church at 3pm after school, but I was stuck with my Mom and Uncle. We had to buy stuffs for my debut which was the following Saturday.

I was supposed to meet someone after I say my prayers.

I sent him a text that I will be late and might be at the church around four or five in the afternoon. He didn’t text back.

Just like what I thought, I got home by 4:30pm. I bought some flowers and walked to church. I said my prayers, and offered the flowers. I went outside the church and seated on the bench thingies. I texted him saying that I’ll wait; still, he didn’t text back. I had the thought that he wouldn’t come to see me on my birthday.

I turned my head to my left and saw him coming.

In mind, I started to ask myself such questions:

"Are we gonna get back together, finally?"

"Are we gonna be like how we were before?"

"Well... what are we gonna talk about?!"

I stood up, and cracked up a smile. He hugged me and greeted me 'happy birthday.'He called me by my nickname, and not with my pet name. That alarmed me; nope, not gonna happen.

We talked about the same unusual things we didn't really talk about. School was first on the list.

The clock said quarter before six, I said I'll start heading home. He offered me a lift, but I refused. Home is a walking distance and I didn't want to be with him anymore anyway; not in the way we treated each other.

We said our goodbyes and I gave him the last flower left that I bought earlier.

As I walked home, I heard sirens blasting from the ambulance that was passing by.

I asked myself,

Can that ambulance be for my heart? Coz' It's breaking.

~All I know was that, I had a talk with God. I had a talk with Him, that if you came that day, on my birthday, at His house... that's a sign that we are meant for each other. I had a talk with God; that was what and what is I am holding on.

A last semester in a high school student.

Wow, in a very sarcastic tone.

First off, when I saw my period 1 in my program schedule, there's a big time reason why to raise an eyebrow.
My counselor still gave me an English elective as if we have not talked about this before.
As a matter of fact, we have talked about this more than twice. Ugh.

Well okay, maybe she just simply did an honest mistake or "forgot" that I'm already done with my English classes because there are a lot of students' program schedule that should be done, too.
Oh, s-o-r-r-y, but I was once told that "they prioritize senior students."
Or they also forgot about that? Or maybe they switched their priority to everyone else?
But oh well, there's nothing more to whine about this, since there is nothing I can do but wait.

Second period, wow, strike two.
Why am I in an Art Intro class?! O_o
Uhh.
Art Introduction is not equal to Digital Imaging

Hello? Hello? Hello?
Am I missing something?
And wow, I can say that she is hella' obsessed about everything being proportional.
Hm, I say that's good for an Art teacher? I.. guess?

Let's skip period three.

Period four, wow, strike three.
I am now officially a lone wolf in French class.
Is that a good thing or what? Uhh, I don't think so.
For the three semesters of my French class, this is the first time that this happened.
But hey, I found out that I got a pretty good score in our final exam last Fall semester.
Ah, that was a good break from the craziness I'm having for the day.

Skip period five, I'm sort of okay with it.

Period six, nothing much, it's my Math Analysis class.
Ah yes, Math, my weakness.
One of our friends left for period three, and another one wants to switch to honors' class for Math.
I wouldn't really want to whine about that, I mean that's for her advantage and plus the fact that Math is her A+ subject.
But to think that she is the first person I always turn to whenever I need help, you have no idea how badly I want her to stay.
But as I said, it's her life, and it's going to be her decision. :]

I think that was it for the first day of my final semester in high school.
I'm just planning to fix my classes tomorrow, just like what my counselor told me that she's going to fix schedules by tomorrow.

"I'll talk to my counselor, fix this crazy schedule, and the next thing I know, I'm in the classes I want to be in."
I thought to myself.

*toot* There will be no class changes until you hear any announcements that you can finally change your classes. Please wait for the announcements. *tooot*
--says a lady in the intercom. oh and wow, she seems annoyed.

And so, screw this until everything gets fixed.
Ugh. I just can't believe that I am THIS disappointed knowing that it
is my last semester in high school.

_pishbolera

Rebirth.

pishbolera got her wanted URL!
YAAY!!
http://pishbolera.blogspot.com is now available!! (finally!) XD
I so wanted this URL!!

It used to be someone's URL so I was forced to use pishbol-fishball for my URL.
A lot of people finds it confusing (and so do I), but I just can't do anything about it, until now.
I randomly tried to do the change today and turns out that it worked!
I just hope that this change won't make any trouble for those who used to know the first pishbolera blogger site.

However, hurrah for now!

_pishbolera

http://pishbol-fishball.blogspot.com
June 8, 2007 - January 30, 2010

2010

Year 2010.

*chills*
Just reminding myself that it is already 2010 gives me chills down to the spine.

I don't know, maybe I'm just too weird that I just can't conclude to myself that,

"ftw, it is already 2010."

You know what I think of 2010?

2010 = empty white/silver spaces, flying cars, nonstop airplanes, r.o.b.o.t.s (waaa!!!)
Yea, pretty much like the music video of Lady Gaga's song called Bad Romance.

But really, it's. just. weird. too weird, and creepy.

I remember three nights ago, I checked my phone to know what the time was, and saw this:

1/3/2010 5:21am

Dude, it was one of the scariest moment of my life.
2010 seems to be THE robots' age. (waaa!!!)

_pishbolera

pishbolera is...

.. turning seventeen tomorrow! :]
and I still can't believe it. O_O

I wanna go back to my grade school days! T-T
But oh well, lol. XD

_pishbolera.

Sanctuary.

I dreamed of a perfect sanctuary, just a couple of nights ago.
It was, incredibly perfect.
I was with my guitar, my camera, sheets of blank paper and a pen.


I have always thought that Pier 39 in San Francisco would be fine.
But my dream proved me wrong.
My dream brought me to a real sanctuary, my perfect sanctuary.
I would be truly amazed if I'd get there, physically.
---

_pishbolera
I never thought of anything like this, ever.
I am different, really different from who I was before.

i miss you pishbol. T-T

ya!
nanaginip pala ako kagabi ng,

pishbol.

yes pare. heaven ung feeling.
andun ako e, sa tuhog-tuhog ng fishball.
tapos tinanong ko pa daw yung nagtitinda,

"50 cents pa rin naman po ung fishball diba?"

haha.
nakakatuwa.
i miss pishbol na.
i miss pilipinas na.

_pishbolera.

'Game Over'

Today is... a fun fun day, I guess? XD

So yea, it started out when I was about to enter the Loker Student Union.
They we're staring at me.
Then Tim said, "Oooh, Shiela's getting a Filipino boyfriend."
Me: "Huh? Wtf?"
Time: "Coz' you look sexxay today."

ROFLMAO.
That was hilarious.

Then Jacque & Jazmin came in and said, "Shiela, you look like a college student."
So yea, they are pretty random today.

Then time for Physics class! Lol, we didn't wanna go, we we're actually talking about ditching the class. LOL.
Good thing we didn't! We watched this movie titled 21 and it was reaaaaaally good.
I was even saying the numbers to myself when the 'keywords' are said.
You gotta see the movie so you can understand what I mean. XD

Then, Physics is over. I felt this weird feeling.
It felt like as if I really am a college student.
I dunno, there's something.. I can't.. I don't really know how to explain O_O

Then English Class, she passed back papers, she returned the poem we wrote, and mine has a comment from her! It said: I loved your poem!
It felt really good, it sounded like Ms. Burroughs.
So yea, then we wrote a Narrative Essay about this picture she showed us.

Lunch. O yea, it's the official start of summer class (though Upward Bound started a week earlier)
so everything in the Loker Student Union Hall was open.
Dragon Express was open! Jazmin was waiting for this!
But Jazmin wasn't able to get some coz' they ran out of Chow Mein.
So yea, I got pizza.

I called kumag and told him I saw this student wearing the 'Game Over' shirt that we've seen before.

Then Psychology class.
Nothing much, but the last 30mins. was fun though.
Shanehi let us play this Icebreaker Game thing, it was fun.
I didn't participate that much coz' I was recording the whole thing! :D
Tss, I need a bigger gb of Memory Stick!!! XDD

So yea, I rushed to the bus stop, coz' he's supposed to be meeting me outside.
He wasn't there -____-
I got pissed.
First bus. [No Air played in my iPod; we have a 'history' on this song XD]
Second bus.. still not there, and freaked the hell out of me. -___-
Oh but wait, I saw him at the first bus stop!
Freakin' kumag didn't get in.
I was reaaaaaaally pissssssssssed. So I called him and told him I was mad, then I hanged up.

I got home and still, I was really pisssssssed.!!
I called him and started to cry because I was reaaaaally pisssssseeeeed, I wanted to see him sooo bad. -___-
He told me to stop and told me that he'd meet me in the library.

So yea, after that I got better. LOL.
Childish much. :))

Then he gave me this shirt, OMG.
The shirt that has this 'Game Over' on it!
[A newly married couple, that says 'Game Over' with the guy wearing a sad face XD]
It was.... so.. ironic. Coz' remember I saw a student wearing this on school earlier?

So yea, he told me he has one too.
It was cute. XD

Tomorrow, we agreed that he is going to meet me after school, this time for sure.
He's not gonna be late.
Oh, and we'd wear the same shirt!
Okay. XD

So yea.
The shirt is right beside me. Gaaah~ The shirt smells sooooo like him! ^^
Oh yea, and we finally made up names for each other! :D
Yinshii and Yangchad. YinYang ^____^

Goodnight. I'm pretty tired.
I finished up my homeworks early! yey!

_pishbolera.

Better in Time

Hmm. Wondering what's with the title again?
You'll find out later. Just go ahead and read.
---
Hmm, I haven't posted anything for eight days, coz' finaaaaaallllyyyyyy I'm back to schooooool~!
So yea, I'm on my new routine, going to school early. They we're teasing me if that was the effect of the accident that happened; but the truth is, it's my New Year's Resolution.
And it was the first time I had one. LOLOL.
Well, after the accident happened; I think too much of random things and I easily get a headache.
I think that's the real effect of it.
---
So yesterday, January 23, 2009;
- It was my Mom's birthday :] I was the first one to greet her :p
- We had a field trip in UCLA, it was fun fun fun.
.. I felt crying while we we're on the bus. I just remembered something.
Something happened on June 3, 2008.
Curious what it ist? Go read my OLD posts, and find the blog entry that has June 3 in it. XDD

.. So yeah the day went on, we had fun, I was in Halo-Halo team with John and Jham. We won the most spirited Team award and we also won the Four Corners game together with team Lumpia.
.. Carson High won high the Most Spirited School award. Yii, C-House~!!
---
Today, January 24, 2009;
- Saturday School in Cal-State.
- A "merienda-date" with my Mom in Mcdo (just to make it up to her for our canceled date on Jan. 12)
.. I was looking around, I stared at our spot. I stared, and thought as if I was watching myself during those days. I really am happy those days.
.. We saw my "so-called-dad/so-called-husband-of-Jham" Dean. It was actually nice to see him again.
.. We walked home, then I went to sleep.
- I woke up, watched some vids that was taken yesterday and ended up listening to Better in Time by Leona Lewis.
.. Theeeeeeeeeere you gooooo, that ends up the wondering. lol.
---
If I'll put some of the lines from the song just like what I did in my previous posts, this blog entry could end up with the whole lyrics of the song.
Yeah, that's how much this song affects me right now.
Sh*t, tinamaan ako. Sapul ba?
LoL I realized I just started listening to Leona Lewis because of the Bleeding Love song; the song that basically became the kilig song even though it's really a song for the broken.
Theeeeen, I became a fan after hearing "Yesterday" and "Better in Time."
Realizing that I CAN ACTUALLY RELATE TO IT.
---
One thing that's bothering me was something I read in Friendster bulletin a while ago. I'm not sure though if it's her or him. The post says that it's him, but as for the attitude it's telling me that IT IS her.
---
I talked to one of my good friends and reminded me that I have my present, the one who's trying to fill up everything.
Man, I'm actually lost for words; whether to say it in Tagalog or English. I just can't explain it.
Okay okay, I'm thinking not to post this blog entry na. :)) It's becoming one whole crappy thing.
I'm actually stucked with the song, kasi nga tinatamaan ako.
Okay enough of this, really this crap is getting annoying. :))
I felt crying earlier and just thought to type anything to stop the feeling.
Chaa~ I don't wanna stop typing, I know what will happen after this.
---

♪~It's gonna hurt when it heals too~♪
♪~It'll all get better in time~♪
♪~And even though I really love you~♪
♪~I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to~♪
- Leona Lewis

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_pishbolera
.. crappy post. -____- I was filled up with thoughts (at least better than this one) the past week in school, but I didn't get the chance to post it here. You know, making up for my 1week absent. -___-
.. putragis, ano ba meron sa'yo?! taena. -________-

a response.

hm, I usually don't do this with my own blog.. But it's for you anyway so... yea. :p
---
I finished reading your blog two hours ago but I'm still thinking about it.
Well I remember everything, or at least everything that has me in it. LOL.
I also remembered everything that you posted about him.
I knooow, I knooooow. YOU ARE happy with him. I have seen that from the very start.
I actually giggled a bit on his attitude that I've seen based on what you typed on your blog.
I'd admit, I thought some of it was really cute.
Maybe I was just a little.. or REALLY worried about you.
I probably wouldn't tell here why, coz' I know you already know.
---
Well I wanted to say sorry for what happened earlier, I guess I have overreacted a little bit again.
I just wanted to say what was on my mind, I don't want anything to linger again. There's too much of anything else to think about, and I'm not letting our arguments be an addition to it.
---
About your blog, LOL, I smile a bit whenever I see my name! LOLOLOLOLOLOL. Am I that special? HAHAHA
Hmm, and about your most recent post.. Here's what I have to say..

I always stay for those people who wants me to.
But don't just tell me you want me to stay.
Show it.
Words are not enough, it could never be enough.
Tell me you want me to stay but showing me the opposite thing; that sounds pretty bizarre, don't you think?
Remember that words and action sounds the loudest, always.

---

I don't know why I care this much to her that I dont wanna lose her, even tho she'd hurt me more than once. I just dont wanna lose her. That's all.
- from your most recent post

I care for you more than you could ever imagine.
I don't wanna lose you either.
You did hurt me more than once, I just never showed it.
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You see, I've never been this protective to any of my closest friends; you're the first one to experience this from me. One big bad luck, isn't it?
Maybe it was time that changed me or it's just.. I think of unnecessary things too much.
Our arguments might be as simple as that, like what I did earlier. I don't wanna get used to it.

I don't wanna get used to the arguments coz' I know (I just know it) that the next thing could happen is
our friendship putting on to waste.
Don't believe me? Let's give it a try then. :p

I'll just spill the things I wanna say then just clear up the conversation window then give a laugh emoticon and start a new topic.
That's how I ended it earlier right?
* Okay this part here is getting a little confusing. cut~
---.
The thought of talking to him formally and knowing him more came up to my interest while reading your blog. Hey hey hey, don't get too excited, I don't even know when or how. Just the thought of talking to him deeply about you and him makes me wanna cry. You know how much disappointment I felt about you and THE past.
And you also know that I'm still aware that someone in silence is still hurting, that person just don't wanna show it. And I still do care for her, even though you're much more important to me.
Only time could tell when and how things will work.
---

Jessel Jam Ibañez
Jham
Jhang
Nay
BetBay
My bestfriend.

Just what I said, seeing my name on your blog made me smile, I hope this one made you smile too :p
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Hmm, so yea, I think that's it. Just what I have said before, "words can never be enough" and I don't wanna sound TOO "corny" on this response. I'm not used to it, saying things like this publicly to my best friend.

I will stay as long as you want me to. Just don't make any drastic changes, it drives me crazy.

---
i love you BetBay :p (what a weird name we have for each other)
i love you newest Bestfriend. :)
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off topic: I was watching Bulagaan earlier and heard this "spell bobo, spell boWboW" from Vic Sotto (I think?)
I just remembered a video clip that was made by some classmates on our Geometry class last Spring Semester '08. That someone special was on it. Hehe. Yes, it was him, Gerard.. radz.
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Tata for now~ I'm actually should be sleeping right now but I wanted to get this done before I go to sleep.
^________^

_pishbolera
.. LOL this blog is getting MORE revealing than before, I used to put WHITE fonts on it (same with the background color) but now I'm not. LOL. Didn't notice it? Go read everything again. Haha. LOLOLOLOL

Serein

Hmm, weird title isn't it?
Well okay, I'll do the best way to explain how I came up with this title.

I watched some Mr. Bean (animated) clips from YouTube. *rofls* Oh how I missed watching it.
Well I've seen this episode again titled In the Woods; where Mr. Bean tried to take pictures of these wild animals.
At the last parts of the video, the clip focused on foxes. Well the clip reminded me of how cute foxes are (especially the arctic ones) so I did some research about foxes. XD

Well I typed "Fox" on Wikipedia, I read the article, and later on I saw this Kitsune link. (Japanese Word for Fox.)
I clicked it for two reasons:

1. Because it's a Japanese word.
2. Because it reminded me of an item in Ragnarok Online. And you guys know how I'm addicted to the said online game. -.-

So yeah, I read it and found it very interesting; how it was associated with stories, magical abilities, with some religion and stuffs. It was also said here that a Kitsune is often portrayed as lovers, with the usual happenings that it involves with a young human male and a Kitsune who takes the form of a young woman.

One part in the article really caught my interest because I've heard of it before:

Other stories tell of kitsune marrying one another. Rain falling from a clear sky — a sunshower — is sometimes called kitsune no yomeiri or the kitsune's wedding, in reference to a folktale describing a wedding ceremony between the creatures being held during such conditions.

A lot of people with the same age as I am probably heard of this before.
Well so yeah, I clicked the sunshower link and saw this word:

Serein - is the word for a rain falling from a cloudless sky.

The word itself and the definition lingered on my thoughts. I knew it has something that applies with me or with other people.

I haven't heard of the said word before so I typed it on dictionary.com and clicked the other link that relates to it.

se - rein [suh-ran]
–noun Meteorology. fine rain falling after sunset from a sky in which no clouds are visible.
- A mist, or very fine rain, which sometimes falls from a clear sky a few moments after sunset. --Tyndall.

and the meaning from the link I clicked (wordsmith.org):

noun: Fine rain falling from an apparently cloudless sky, typically observed after sunset.

Now that I've finally gave you the meaning of my blog title, it's probably obvious what kind of mood I am having now.
Yes pishbolera is back on the so called emote mode/emo mode.
Gee, I guess that accident made my thinking of unnecessary things even worse.

Okay. Back on discussing people.

How did I see it as an application to myself and to other people?
You know how we choose to cry (oh man not this again) whenever we know there's no one can see us?
.. Or how we choose to cry silently so no one could hear us?
.. Or how we choose to cry the finest way that people can't even notice our tears?
You know how we fake a smile so people won't see that pain is actually killing us inside?

People usually cry after sunset.
People usually tend to look fine so they could avoid questions from other people.

.. Hmm didn't get my point? Go read the definition again.
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I found this on wordsmith.org under the definition of the word serein. I just thought it has the same interpretation to what I have just said.

A THOUGHT FOR TODAY:

Journalism is publishing what someone doesn't want us to know, the rest is propaganda.
-Horacio Verbitsky, journalist (b. 1942)

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See this blog entry packed with exaggeration? I'd apologize for that.
I just want to share how I see the similarities of crying to the word serein.
---
_pishbolera
ok ok. back to rest~

awww. ouch.

hm. I didn't go to school. again.
My neck and head still hurts.
I slept at 1am and woke up at 5am, nauna pa ko nagising sa alarm clock ko.
I can't get up easily, and my head hurts, so I decided not to go to school; my mom agreed.
Hmm, I tried getting back to sleep again but man, I can't sleep.
My mom turned off the lights, I turned it back again after feeling the dizziness without the lights.
I felt crying for a moment.
----
Hmm. 7am, I got tired of trying to sleep and just sat, staring at the wall.
I checked on my laptop, lots of them left a message.
I talked to one of my friends in Pinas. It was Gideon. Gidz, my first love.
Well we talked about my condition and told me that I should get my check-up immediately.
I told him I don't want to coz' I'm scared what they will find out and what they might do to me. o.O
He scolded me and said:

" Kesa naman mamatay ka. ungas. "

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Hmm, shortly after that, I had my breakfast with Mom.
Then I went back to sleep.
My mom is about to go out and help Tita Cory with some stuffs.
While I was in sleep, I suddenly felt that somebody was staring at me.
I moved and saw my mom staring at me.
LOL, I knew she was checking if I'm still breathing.
Well, can't blame her, this is one serious accident.
----
3:35pm, I woke up. I continued reading my older posts in this blog.
I missed the late nights after reading my post about watching TV during 1am-6am while drinking coffee or tea.
I miss Conan O' Brien.
hmm, what else?
I realized I'm much of a different person. I can't even recognize myself typing those blog entries (the older ones)
Man, what happened? o.O
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_ pishbolera; yay! back on blogging again!

first day of school for 2009.

man, I was a little excited going to school today.
I woke up early, it felt WEIRD.
I usually go to school a little LATE. :))
hm. yeah, first period; PE.
We saw Mr. Sakurai carrying the stuffs for football; I heard complains everywhere,
I even heard myself complaining about it.
I don't wanna get sweaty today, man, not now. -.-
---
ok, weird ulit. nag-eenglish na naman ako, TAE.
ok so ayun, ayun nga naglalaro, saya nung una ako nakakuha nung ball, tapos lahat ng teammates ko binantayan ako :))
kaso ayun, nakuha pa rin flag ko. rawr.
hmm. basta ayun, naglalaro naman ako ng maayos.
basta biglang..
nung ittry ko sana saluhin ung bola, biglang this BIG guy appeared in front of me o.O
di niya ata ako napansin sa likod niya, eh ayun na out of balance siya, so natumba xa; NADAGANAN AKO, AT NATUMBA AKO SA GROUND.
omg. FIRST TIME ko matumba ng SOLID sa ground. -.-
ang sakit tae, basta bigla ko nalang narinig may teacher (Mr. Mason and Ms. Hernandez) na sa tabi ko, I was still lying on the ground, can't get up, eyes closed, feeling dizzy.
ayun, some reality questions just to check if I really am okay o.O
I got up, but still, my head hurts.
I really still didn't want to get up, but tss, I don't wanna make a big scenario right there.
- oh yeah, after I told them that I'm alright, my classmates applauded. LOL. -.-
Ayun pinaupo muna ko sa bench; Ms. Hernandez told me that someone will pick me up and they will bring me to the Nurse's Office.
She asked my locker number and she said that her T.A. will get my stuffs and give it to the office.
Then ayun, dumating na yung golf car, ako daw unang isasakay dun ngayong 2009, TAE.
Dinala ako sa Nurse's Office.
Basta ayun, tinawag si Mama, at etoh, pinauwi ako.
oh yeah, I was also diagnosed with fever. o.O
----
I felt a little sad, I really wanna go to school today.
Hmm, okay back to rest.
My head and neck hurts.
And I feel like my ears and nose are about to bleed. -.-
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hmm, first day of school, first accident of the year.

oh well, another year.

hm. year 2009 has just begun. XDD
it's 2:24 in the morning, and of course it's normal to see PISHBOLERA still awake at this kind of time.

hm. let's see. i'm taking a "little sip" [well AM i SURE?!] of something that would help me fall asleep.
jusme friends, I still didn't get any sleep for the past 34hours. (and still counting. rawr)
and why?! because i was planning to UPDATE all of my freakin' stuffs; friendster pictures, this blog, etc.
but hey, I almost finished uploading pictures in my Friendster account :p
hm, but I didn't even get my blog half done. omg.

i just typed this to pour in the exact mood i am having right now in this blog entry.
coz you see, if i do the "flashback" thingy again it'll lose the "real thrill" out of it.
and it sucks.
but yea, im'ma continue the flashbacks thingy just to fill up the space within the past eight months.
heck. eight months.

so yeah. it's new year.
so what about it?! how did i celebrate it?
here in CA, it's not that much fun unlike the way we Filipinos celebrate it in our homeland.
it's pretty.. hm.. lame.

well, I had a different way of celebrating New Year this time unlike the way I celebrated it last year.
last year was so full of drama, err, homesick.
but now, hm, i guess much better. i was freakin' loooud. o.O
but yes, i have to admit, the past few days .. nights? err.. late nights.. we're pretty full of dramas.

i'm back on losing my appetite again.
and it's because of HIM.
i can't sleep normally.
and it's because of HIM.
i was crying the past few late nights.
and it's because of HIM.
it really hurts in the most painful way.
and it's because of HIM.
yet, I'm smiling right now,
and still, it's because of HIM.
i was with him in this one online game. yes. until 12mn.
i was with him when 2009 began.
i greeted him and he greeted me. it was still somehow a little bit awkward. well, it takes time.
i gave him the /kis2 and /kis emoticons. hehe :]

err. you were just with him in an online game, big deal?! get over it.
LOL. my "present" didn't even called nor texted to greet me a happy new year.
so what can you expect? :p

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okay. i'm feeling pretty weird with my talking.
why am i typing english? LOL?
sooo, another year.
i'm really looking forward to the "continuation" of the unfinished chapters of OUR love story.
lols.
i realized that i had a lot of changes.
hehe.

April 21 - May 11 (flashbacks)

.. haaaay grabeeee
.. 2months aqng hindi nag update!
.. so pano ko ccmulan toh?!
.. ang daming nangyari. sobra.
.. at sa dami ng nangyayari, ngaun lang aq ngkaron ng free time na mkpag update ulit
.. takte. di ko tlga alam kung pano ko toh sisimulan. ahem!
.. ok ok.. start tayo ng april 21.

April 21-27, 2008
.. anorexic week ko toh kuno. hahahaha.
.. wala kong gana kumain talaga. kahit tomguts na tomguts na ko. wala tlgang gana kumain.
(21) - ngpagupit kami ni jhang dun sa pinoy beauty salon ba un? haha // aun. aios naman. enjoy. ksama pa si ghen, basia, cleo & tine. yess. may witnesses. =))
(22) - lol. first ever pic namin ni ano toh. hahahaha. kras ko na xa that time. LOOOOOOL.
- pumunta kami carson park nito. nag OPEN FORUM ang CaLibRetz. grabe haha. saya rin nito. naglaro muna sila. tapos kami lang ni jham ang sitting pretty. etoh yung araw na sinabi ko kay jham ung sikret ko wuhaha. at dito ko gnawang "spot ng calibretz" somewhere in carson park. haha.
- lols natawa ko nito. hinaplos niya yung buhok kong bagong gupit.. TAKE NOTE: di pa kami gano close nito. shyet kinilig ako =))
(23) - 2nd pic with ano. hanep. matino tino na :) kras ko na tlga xa. hanep. =)) pic din namin ni Mr. Alaan. oha!
- oh yeah. naaios na nga pala yung problem ng time na toh. natuloy yung pnnod ng sine with mom & dad. nood kami Forbidden Kingdom starring Jet Li & Jackie Chan. enjoy din. haha.
(24) - wala ko mtndaan. hahahaha. pero alam ko may something @ G9. =))
(25) - nawala yung ano. haha. -yung bag nya. takte sa likod ko xa lagi nkaupo pag geom! kilig!
- dito ko nalaman yung full name nya. bangis ng style ko eh. hahahaha.- - saya ko rin nito. nag-alala na xa para sken nito eh. hahaha. pero ayun kumain na ko nung dinner. binantayan na talaga aq ni mama para lang kumain. haha
(26) - gyeah.. our conversation continues.. hahahaha. grabe na ni! oh yeah. i implemented the "radz" nickname on him :) around 9pm ko un cnabi sa knya. pero may KUYA pa rin kuno.
(27) - bday celeb ni tito garry. lols nag buffet kami. ampfness lugi ako! tuloy pa rin ang pgkawalang gana ng kain eh. hays --.

" haha kanina anak ng pating, ngayon pechay na" - sabi nya.

.. lols wla lang ngbbasa kse aq msg archives. wala na tlga ko gano mtndaan sa mga ngyari. .. so etoh ngbbasa q archive para maalala mga ngyari :D

April 28 - May 4, 2008
(28) - i lab G9. bsta. alam ko merong something again sa G9.
- pgkaupo namin dun sa antayan sa may G9.. banat nya kagad:

" tsk. wala pa rin aqng naiicp na ittawag ko sa'yo "
-cute dba? :)

- ayun. mgkausap kami nito. hahaha as usual. tpos.. wee sabi nya sken:

" wag ka gagaya dun sa napanood natin kanina ha "

.. haneeep. concern! hahaha kse bsta yung movie na napanood namin tungkol sa mga teenagers na mahilig sa.. alam mo na. hahaha.
- etoh.. medjo seryoso usapan namin nito. bsta. 2ngkol sa akin. haha. chiodos mode toh :))
(29) -nagpa gupit na xa nito hahaha. kaso kinabukasan q pa makikita. - daya eh. npdaan pala sila ng library non. kaso nasa skul pa ko eh. ampfs. :))
(30) - hoho. prang excited na kami pareho lagi na mkausap ang isa't isa..

- lols. nakita q na ung bagong haircut.. lols gupit bang mttwag yun? nyahaha pis ^^
- badtrip toh eh. gnawa ng by group yung seating arrangements sa geom. TAE. --.
- oh yeah. e2 yung araw na nakapulot aq ng $10 x3
(May 1) - loools tong araw na toh grabe. sa G9.. lols nanood sila ng movie.. xmpre dun aq nakaupo sa alam nyo na.. ayun ngbbasa lang ako kse nga CRAM reading na naman. kse knabukasan submission ng book report.
- sobrang saya ko nito. 1st time nagkahawak kamay namin --. wahahaha
.. so ayun. ngbbasa ko. habang medjo gnugulo nya ko. hahahaha. tpos.. lalo q gnanahan nung sabi nya:

" good luck " (sabay smile.. shyet..)

.. so aun hanggang after school namin. knkilig aq ng bonggang bongga =))
.. at ayun ntapos q ang book report. :) salamat sa kanya. sobrang inspired. hanep.
- oh yeah sa comp. wala ko ginawa. nag tutor lang aq ng kaklase. hahaha.
(May 2) - taena. ampf toh. may kagaguhang gnawa mga classmates namin sa PE. aun. pnaglinis kami ng gym. ampfs. para kaming nag community service. :))
- LOOOL. as in LOOOOL talaga. ippasa ko na yung book report.. ng muli kong tignan yung date of submission
.. ang pgkkabasa ko talaga dun dati, May 2. shet. ang tama pala ay: May 9.
.. bull. crap. :))
.. pero masaya pa rin aq kahit ganon.. at least natapos ko na dba? :)
.. di kami ngkachat nito. hehe. nanood daw sila ng sine. x3
.. sige tama yan. ngpamiss ka. hahaha.
(May 3)

"can i be buried here among the dead?"
"no. i won't allow you :]"
"why?"
"you'll stay here. with me."

.. shyet sa banat noh. smooooooth. hahaha. buong araw ko xa kausap. grabe.
.. dito na nagssimula yung "nagpapamis/magpapamis ako" na linya. hahaha.
.. at yung mga mapnimulang chat na: "SHIIEEEEEELLLLAAAAAA" as in mahaba. kaw ha. miss mo ko mxado. hahahaha! (lols as if namang aq hindi. hahaha)
.. weeeeeee. e2 yung araw na sinabi nya yung tungkol sa talent show. :)
.. kung okay lang daw. ipagppaalam nya ko sa parents ko. kilig na naman! hahaha!

(May 4) .. late na xa nagOL nito. hahaha .. e2 kagad banat..

siya: "miss mo ko?"
ako: "wapak sa tanong ah! :))"

.. choss kng alam nya lang. hahahaha .. lahat ng hug emoticons namin nito meron ng maraming "!" hahahaha .. gigil ba? LOLS.

(May 5) - .. lols. ayan na mamili daw aq kng ano ang ittwag nya sken shu or shi. LOLS. haha .. kulit mo :3 pero eventually.. nging shie nalang. hehe. x3

"bsta kung glit k sa mundo wag kng susuko ibuhos mo lng ang glit mo kay tony... ok?" -sabi nya

.. haha lols. :))
(6) -lols bait saken ni Mr. Alaan ng araw na toh. basta yung dun sa pass thingy. haha
- at ang highlight of the day! tentenenen! tungkol sa bleeding love na song.
.. kras ko palang xa
.. naalala ko na lagi lagi xa everytime na narrinig ko toh.
.. at ngayong araw na toh. nkkatawa.
.. nung papunta kami nila Basia sa period 2
.. pinapakinggan namin ung bleeding love, tas nkasalubong namin xa. todo kilig naman si ako. hahaha. smile xa eh weee
.. sa period 3 ko naman. medjo naiwan aq sa comp class room kse may inayos pa ko tungkol dun sa website.. tas tumugtog sa radio ni Miss Gentry yung song na bleeding love.. grabe
.. nagkaabutan kami sa room. as in nagkita na naman kami ng hndi sinasadya. .. grabeee --.
- babatukan nya na raw ako, kung anu-ano na raw pnagsssabi ko. hahahaha!
(7) - weeee saya saya ko nito. ngssulatan kami sa paper. hahahaha. ang cute cuuuute x3
.. ayun nakatago pa rin yung paper na yun :]
- di aq nakaOL nito. pumunta kami ni mom & dad ng cal. state.. orientation para dun sa upward bound ko. hoho (8) - di pa rin aq nakaOL. 2 days na kong nagpapamiss /gg .. pero nung health may ginawa qng something sa papel.. hehe. nagustuhan nya. ayun inarbor at itinago :D xmpre kilig naman si ako. lol.
(9) - angas oh! natagpuan na ang kanyang mahiwagang. ano. hahahaha. - waaaaaa napunit yung papel na kng san kami nagsulatan. "pinunit KO" daw. sabi nya. haha. ayun tinape ko. para masaya ^^
- lols tas nag drawing aq ng pusa. nilagyan ko isang cheek lang ung may whiskers

xa: "bat isa lang?"
aq: "eeeh! para cute x3" _natawa xa eh. :)

- may binigay rin xa saken. weee. yung lyrics nung song na pinaalam nya saken na nagustuhan ko. hehe. tapos dun sa baba nung page may malaking SHIELA tpos may hug emoticon. weee.

- ayan nkaOL na ko. hahahaha. grabe ung "WAAAA" na sinend nya saken. tas ang banat nya:

"ngppamis ka kse =("
"2 days :("
"lam mo naman na eepekto yun eh :D"

.. wee medjo nagkakabistuhan na kami nito. hahaha.
.. saya ng chat namin nung araw na toh. kinapa namin yung lyrics nung pareho naming gustong song :]
.."hug nalang kita.. bawal humindi"..
.. knkilig ako. shyet. hahaha.
.. "pag ako nang gigil sayo!" .. ok kinikilig na tlga ko =))

.. nagsimula na dito yung mga tanong nya na: "tanga ba ko?"
.. aq naman tong sumagot na: "may mga bagay na mnsan di mo pedeng kontrolin eh.. or di mo mgggwan ng paraan para pigilan yun. mnsan naiicp natin kasalanan natin yun.. tpos iicpn natin tanga taio.."
.. ayun. blackmailin daw ba ko?! pag nagpagutom daw ako di nya ko kakausapin. haha
- si tito milo dumating. hehe nag dinner kami sa labas. family night again :]

(10) - .. oh dito na rin nagsimula na xa si :3 at ako si x3
.. hehe ^____^
- last night napanaginipan ko kaming dalawa. magkayakap dun sa ilalim nung punong gusto ko. yung violet x3
.. ang cute cute niya non. grabe.

"kulit nating dalawa hayy"
"tapos magpapamiss ka na naman"

.. ui kilig na naman. :))
.. halos lahat ng cnasabi sa chat meron ng heart. wuhahaha :))
- umalis kami ni mama nito. punta LA. shopping shopping x3
- nung gabi naman. pagkarating ko..
.. banat nya kagad sken: "i miss you"
.. shyet. sinong hindi kikiligin. --.

(11) - aga ko gumising nito. dapat sasamahan niya ko magsimba. --.

"pero po ttry ko tlga kasi gus2 ko din po makasama ka ^_^"

.. oha oha. knkilig ang loka. hahahaha
.. pogo. mag-isa ko nagsimba. di nya ko nasamahan magsimba --.
.. pero sabi nya. babawi xa sken kinabukasan sa school. /gg nyahaha :]
.. tanong xa ng tanong kung kumain na ba ako. tapos sabi nya:

"pasensya tanong ako ng tanong ah nag aalala lang"

.. hanep. :))
.. ayun after magsimba. pagkarating ni dad. bumili kami flowers & card for mom. mother's day po ngayon :]
.. tas nagdinner sa lucky china
_ yung lang! :p

-* ok end ko na blog entry ko dito. the next blog entries would be the continuations. masyado na kasing mahaba eh.. :)

.. all about pishbol.

.. it's not a story of "fishball"
.. it's all about miss pishbolera XD

::: 7:30am aq nagising ngayon. kkgcng q plang pero puro adobe photoshop & Imageready na nsa isip ko. bwahaha. Father's Day ngayon. so pra sa lahat ng tatay ::: Happy Father's Day :::
.. ayon ngcmula na qng gumawa ng mga siggys/sigs. err habang gmgwa ko narinig q sa radio yung song na :: "mag.ka.suyo buong gabi.. masaya't magkatabi..magkayakap buong magdaman" :: lolx. bgla ko natwa dun. haha.

::: tpos, 12noon lunch na kami, lunch na sabay-sabay. kung pwedeng gnito kami eh, isa na toh sa mga mssayang lunch namin. masaya. kaso kulang kami. tsaka nde kami ngppncnan nung isa qng kuya. after lunch back to pc na naman. sayang lang tlga nde na2loi ung paglabas nmin ngayon. bukas nalang daw. harhar
.. 2ngkol naman sa kuya ko na hnde ako pnapansin. ewan ko ba sa kanya plibhasa ang immature mag-isip. alam na ngang naiinis aq sa taong yun kkmpihan nya pa. tmang WALA xang kampihan pra wlang gulo. eh eto nga lang tlga meh knakampihan xa. sheesh, so what pag-untugin ko pa sila.

::: 2 sigs down. 1 to go. ayon 3 na ngawa ko. err ewan q ba gusto q 2ng gngwa ko. if ever may kumontra. patay ka sken. wahaha. around 4pm, WOW. nagOL ang aking bespren wahaha. namiss ko toh. ayun chat chat. nag offline na xa. eto tutok pc pa ren.

::: err eto na naman po xa. napainit na naman ulo ko. ewan ko ba mdalas na qng tinotopak at lgue q xang npagiinitan. ang bilis na tlga uminit ng ulo ko ngayon hndi q alam kng bket. eeh EWAN q tlga. di q alm kng anong mali saken. ampz.
.. at dahil gusto kong pahabain ang blog na toh. lemme tell you about myself.

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::: bbaeng lging nka-pajama (PJ's) or kng nde man Pjs nka jogging pants. bsta ayoko ng nka shorts. kng nka shorts man yung abot knees wahaha. ewan q ba, ayokong lmlabas ng nka shorts. wla naman aq tntago sa legs ko noh. tipong meh touch of being conservative lang talaga. hmm ano pa ba.

::: sbi ng pinsan ko. kkaiba daw XD kung ikkumpara sa ibang girls. i do play OL games lalo na RO unlike other girls doing such girly stuffs. wahaha.

::: bbaeng mahilig sa fishball.pizza.salad _including veggie salads_. bsta karamihan puro salty foods.
.. let's go deeper naman

::: kung sa girls (FRIENDS). gusto ko ung prang ate ko XD. basta preho kami ng ugali pede na cguro
::: sa guys. unang una eeeh. gusto ko ng llakeng pnpatawa aq. AYOKO ng llakeng dndramahan ako. pero alam q naman na hndi maiiwasan yun paminsan-minsan. i said it MINSAN lang dapat. eeek kaya ayun 2lad ni 1stlove ko .. errr ampz. yun lang naman ngustuhan q sa knya eh. lgue nya ko nppatawa.. err enough bout him.

::: mahirap kapag nging kaaway mo ko tsk tsk. eeeh some of my batchmates said " kapag yan naging kaaway mo, naku mag tagu-tago ka na ". lolx nttwa ko sa mga sinabi nilang yun. hndi naman aq murderer ampz.

::: pero pag friends tayo. okay naman _daw_ ako. harhar

::: ayoko rin ng tao na yung tipong tinititigan aq tpos prang yung facial expression nya eh yung tipong nkataas yung kilay & prang iniicp na " tga mars ba toh ". mdalas na nkka encounter ako nyan babae. lalo na yung gf nung kuya ko. err. special mention pa. ewan ko basta irita ako sa bbaeng yun. tmang nkkisama nalang ako sa knya. pero ngayon haha tama na. tmang nde ko nalang xa pansinin kesa naman matiris ko pa xa.

::: hmm ano pa ba. ayun. madalas mlngkot pero lging nka-smiLe. meh pgka boyish ako. pero iyakin haha. XD
::: and lastly. mkkalimutan ko ba toh. bbaeng addict sa pc!! sows. ang pc ko 24/7 ng nkabukas. lging nageedit ng pics. khti 3am pa in the morning XD
.. etong mga siggy/sigs na gnwa ko. libre yan. wahaha. ewan ko gusto ko tlga tong mga gngwa ko. can't wait to go back sa Baldur prO server. aq din ggwa ng sigs nmin wahaha.

::: puppies/dogs + kittens/cat + roses/flowers + pc = happy me ^_______^

.. ayan wala na ko msabi mahaba na dba? :D
.. e2 yung mga pics na inedit ko
.. may tatak yan! pishbolera_prado
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.. till here ^______^
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