Coincidence? Fate?

I went to church today alone because Mom still didn't have enough strength to do so.
I ran, jaywalked, and ran again from home because I was running late (did a lot of cleaning in the house today, phew).
I was able to get to church as fast as five minutes.

Mass went on, and took the communion.
I said my prayer as I was kneeling and had my eyes closed.
I opened my eyes, stood up, and randomly scanned the people on my far right.
Someone caught my eye.

He was there standing.
What a coincidence that I've just mentioned him in my prayers.

While looking at the crucifix, I thought to myself...
Dear God, you're playing a little joke on me again :)

Then randomly again, I looked behind me and saw this one guy wearing a shirt with two big letters on it.
"AE" Yeah, American Eagle. Oh well, that's his (the one who caught my eye) frigging initials.
Wow really?! Nice -___-.

I don't know, it was weird. Hahaaaay.
I don't wanna go back to "us" anymore. I'm not brave and strong enough to go through this again.
Oh, there was an announcement about the church carnival. It reminded me that it's been a year since the first time you tried to let go of me. So many wasted chances.
NC, this also reminds me of our "coincidence" day two years ago. :(

Lame.

Year | Number of Blog Entries (as of the moment):

2006: 2 posts - uhh, WTF?! I'm that I ain't wasting any paper on blog entries, right?

2007: 64 posts - nice :D

2008: 18 posts - hmm, k.

2009: 43 posts - aight! ;)

2010: 6 - really?! O_O

2011: 6 - no seriously, REALLY?! o____O

Hmm. This blog has becoming lame-ER and lame-ER than ever.

I gotta post more, to at least remind myself of my mistakes so I won't lose their lessons.

I have a story to tell tomorrow; or at least something to vent out.

Yeah, tomorrow...it's too much to write about as of the moment.

Too sensitive and too saddening.

One day.

One day,

I won't look back.

I won't miss you.

I won't even remember your name.

One day, one day.

You'll see.

Stupid me.

!@#$%^&*!@#$#@%$#^%!!!

At this very moment, I am supposed to be somewhere else and about to experience something life-changing.

Stupid me who wasted so much time, money, and high expectations.

Aaaah!!!! Somewhere else... like in a different continent.