masamang panaginip.

sa cafeteria ng Carson High School,
may mga di kilalang lalaki ang nagsipasok.
mga holdaper ang loko.

kasama ko ang aking mga kaibigan.
sabi ko sa kanila kumalma.
sa pagiging kalmante namin, napansin pa rin kami.

hinablot ako, at tinutukan ako ng kutsilyo sa leeg, at hiningi ang gamit ko.
sabi ko naman wala akong gamit, nasa locker.
nagalit lalo ang loko at idiniin ang kutsilyo sa aking leeg.
nakita ko rin na tinutukan ng kutsilyo ang isa sa aking mga kaibigan.

naigising nalang ako bigla.
masakit ang leeg kung saan sa aking panaginip itinutok ang kutsilyo.
napansin ko rin na nakatigil aq sa paghinga ng ako'y nagising.

...

To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold Utopian dream
You do something to me, that I can't explain.

Everything I did the past few days is considered a sin.
Days? Weeks? No maybe months.
Not only to one person, but there's two of them.
Or maybe not just two.

I realized I never let go. Never did, never knew when.

I always find myself, reminiscing and crying.

It's foolish. I know.
I'm sorry to whoever might read this bunch of crap.

Would I be out of line if I say I miss you?
No. I miss you too.
- June 20, 2008.

The day was really frustrating.

Well. It was really frustrating in some ways.

1. Mr. Sugawara (one of the favorite teachers) wasn't able to attend the Open House.
I really wanted Mom to meet him~

2. The Academic Decathlon interview has been rescheduled.
They will just give us another notification when it will be held.

3. I didn't really enjoy the Open House.
Back to #1 reason. LOL.
And some other personal reasons.

When Mom and I were walking back home, I felt the exhaustion.
I felt like the day of excitement just went down under where I was stepping on. ~_~

When we got home, I stayed in silence.
Even though I heard my tummy growling because I was starving, I chose to just take a nap.
I felt like crying, I just felt everything. ~_~

I'm getting weird and weirder every day. O.o

Good part of the day was on Ms. Tucker's class.
That's it LOL.
And yeah she let me hold her dog Minnie, wahaha. :))
I had a picture taken with Minnie, thanks Tine. :)

_pishbolera

Can't calm down.

Whew.
Okay, I just can't calm down.

One, because tomorrow's my interview for the Academic Decathlon.
Two, we have a quiz on Algebra tomorrow.
And you know how I always get nervous on Math quizzes and stuff.
And three, because I can't help not to smile because of what happened later after school. :)

I got the chance to walk with him.
But we really didn't talk that much.
He's with a friend and I'm with a friend. Soo..~

So yeah.
I'm nervous for tomorrow.
I can hear my tummy growling because of anxiety.
Whew.~
Good luck Good luck Good luck~

_pishbolera
the tranquil mind has faded completely.
and it's because of you.

1:15am

It's weird, I just felt to post something o.O

I've been missing a lot of stuff from here and there.
There: My family, friends and my dogs (Sasquatch has fully grown. damn) back in Pinas.
Here: And the mood I always had when I'm with him.

Spring break is almost over and I wasn't able to do the stuffs I have to do with this blog.
The stuffs that I have to put in here that happened almost a year ago.

Hm, so nothing unusual with this post.
Gaaaah~ I want a Golden Retriever and Siberian Husky soooo baaaaad~
Weh? Random. -___-

And I found myself, crying.