April 21 - May 11 (flashbacks)

.. haaaay grabeeee
.. 2months aqng hindi nag update!
.. so pano ko ccmulan toh?!
.. ang daming nangyari. sobra.
.. at sa dami ng nangyayari, ngaun lang aq ngkaron ng free time na mkpag update ulit
.. takte. di ko tlga alam kung pano ko toh sisimulan. ahem!
.. ok ok.. start tayo ng april 21.

April 21-27, 2008
.. anorexic week ko toh kuno. hahahaha.
.. wala kong gana kumain talaga. kahit tomguts na tomguts na ko. wala tlgang gana kumain.
(21) - ngpagupit kami ni jhang dun sa pinoy beauty salon ba un? haha // aun. aios naman. enjoy. ksama pa si ghen, basia, cleo & tine. yess. may witnesses. =))
(22) - lol. first ever pic namin ni ano toh. hahahaha. kras ko na xa that time. LOOOOOOL.
- pumunta kami carson park nito. nag OPEN FORUM ang CaLibRetz. grabe haha. saya rin nito. naglaro muna sila. tapos kami lang ni jham ang sitting pretty. etoh yung araw na sinabi ko kay jham ung sikret ko wuhaha. at dito ko gnawang "spot ng calibretz" somewhere in carson park. haha.
- lols natawa ko nito. hinaplos niya yung buhok kong bagong gupit.. TAKE NOTE: di pa kami gano close nito. shyet kinilig ako =))
(23) - 2nd pic with ano. hanep. matino tino na :) kras ko na tlga xa. hanep. =)) pic din namin ni Mr. Alaan. oha!
- oh yeah. naaios na nga pala yung problem ng time na toh. natuloy yung pnnod ng sine with mom & dad. nood kami Forbidden Kingdom starring Jet Li & Jackie Chan. enjoy din. haha.
(24) - wala ko mtndaan. hahahaha. pero alam ko may something @ G9. =))
(25) - nawala yung ano. haha. -yung bag nya. takte sa likod ko xa lagi nkaupo pag geom! kilig!
- dito ko nalaman yung full name nya. bangis ng style ko eh. hahahaha.- - saya ko rin nito. nag-alala na xa para sken nito eh. hahaha. pero ayun kumain na ko nung dinner. binantayan na talaga aq ni mama para lang kumain. haha
(26) - gyeah.. our conversation continues.. hahahaha. grabe na ni! oh yeah. i implemented the "radz" nickname on him :) around 9pm ko un cnabi sa knya. pero may KUYA pa rin kuno.
(27) - bday celeb ni tito garry. lols nag buffet kami. ampfness lugi ako! tuloy pa rin ang pgkawalang gana ng kain eh. hays --.

" haha kanina anak ng pating, ngayon pechay na" - sabi nya.

.. lols wla lang ngbbasa kse aq msg archives. wala na tlga ko gano mtndaan sa mga ngyari. .. so etoh ngbbasa q archive para maalala mga ngyari :D

April 28 - May 4, 2008
(28) - i lab G9. bsta. alam ko merong something again sa G9.
- pgkaupo namin dun sa antayan sa may G9.. banat nya kagad:

" tsk. wala pa rin aqng naiicp na ittawag ko sa'yo "
-cute dba? :)

- ayun. mgkausap kami nito. hahaha as usual. tpos.. wee sabi nya sken:

" wag ka gagaya dun sa napanood natin kanina ha "

.. haneeep. concern! hahaha kse bsta yung movie na napanood namin tungkol sa mga teenagers na mahilig sa.. alam mo na. hahaha.
- etoh.. medjo seryoso usapan namin nito. bsta. 2ngkol sa akin. haha. chiodos mode toh :))
(29) -nagpa gupit na xa nito hahaha. kaso kinabukasan q pa makikita. - daya eh. npdaan pala sila ng library non. kaso nasa skul pa ko eh. ampfs. :))
(30) - hoho. prang excited na kami pareho lagi na mkausap ang isa't isa..

- lols. nakita q na ung bagong haircut.. lols gupit bang mttwag yun? nyahaha pis ^^
- badtrip toh eh. gnawa ng by group yung seating arrangements sa geom. TAE. --.
- oh yeah. e2 yung araw na nakapulot aq ng $10 x3
(May 1) - loools tong araw na toh grabe. sa G9.. lols nanood sila ng movie.. xmpre dun aq nakaupo sa alam nyo na.. ayun ngbbasa lang ako kse nga CRAM reading na naman. kse knabukasan submission ng book report.
- sobrang saya ko nito. 1st time nagkahawak kamay namin --. wahahaha
.. so ayun. ngbbasa ko. habang medjo gnugulo nya ko. hahahaha. tpos.. lalo q gnanahan nung sabi nya:

" good luck " (sabay smile.. shyet..)

.. so aun hanggang after school namin. knkilig aq ng bonggang bongga =))
.. at ayun ntapos q ang book report. :) salamat sa kanya. sobrang inspired. hanep.
- oh yeah sa comp. wala ko ginawa. nag tutor lang aq ng kaklase. hahaha.
(May 2) - taena. ampf toh. may kagaguhang gnawa mga classmates namin sa PE. aun. pnaglinis kami ng gym. ampfs. para kaming nag community service. :))
- LOOOL. as in LOOOOL talaga. ippasa ko na yung book report.. ng muli kong tignan yung date of submission
.. ang pgkkabasa ko talaga dun dati, May 2. shet. ang tama pala ay: May 9.
.. bull. crap. :))
.. pero masaya pa rin aq kahit ganon.. at least natapos ko na dba? :)
.. di kami ngkachat nito. hehe. nanood daw sila ng sine. x3
.. sige tama yan. ngpamiss ka. hahaha.
(May 3)

"can i be buried here among the dead?"
"no. i won't allow you :]"
"why?"
"you'll stay here. with me."

.. shyet sa banat noh. smooooooth. hahaha. buong araw ko xa kausap. grabe.
.. dito na nagssimula yung "nagpapamis/magpapamis ako" na linya. hahaha.
.. at yung mga mapnimulang chat na: "SHIIEEEEEELLLLAAAAAA" as in mahaba. kaw ha. miss mo ko mxado. hahahaha! (lols as if namang aq hindi. hahaha)
.. weeeeeee. e2 yung araw na sinabi nya yung tungkol sa talent show. :)
.. kung okay lang daw. ipagppaalam nya ko sa parents ko. kilig na naman! hahaha!

(May 4) .. late na xa nagOL nito. hahaha .. e2 kagad banat..

siya: "miss mo ko?"
ako: "wapak sa tanong ah! :))"

.. choss kng alam nya lang. hahahaha .. lahat ng hug emoticons namin nito meron ng maraming "!" hahahaha .. gigil ba? LOLS.

(May 5) - .. lols. ayan na mamili daw aq kng ano ang ittwag nya sken shu or shi. LOLS. haha .. kulit mo :3 pero eventually.. nging shie nalang. hehe. x3

"bsta kung glit k sa mundo wag kng susuko ibuhos mo lng ang glit mo kay tony... ok?" -sabi nya

.. haha lols. :))
(6) -lols bait saken ni Mr. Alaan ng araw na toh. basta yung dun sa pass thingy. haha
- at ang highlight of the day! tentenenen! tungkol sa bleeding love na song.
.. kras ko palang xa
.. naalala ko na lagi lagi xa everytime na narrinig ko toh.
.. at ngayong araw na toh. nkkatawa.
.. nung papunta kami nila Basia sa period 2
.. pinapakinggan namin ung bleeding love, tas nkasalubong namin xa. todo kilig naman si ako. hahaha. smile xa eh weee
.. sa period 3 ko naman. medjo naiwan aq sa comp class room kse may inayos pa ko tungkol dun sa website.. tas tumugtog sa radio ni Miss Gentry yung song na bleeding love.. grabe
.. nagkaabutan kami sa room. as in nagkita na naman kami ng hndi sinasadya. .. grabeee --.
- babatukan nya na raw ako, kung anu-ano na raw pnagsssabi ko. hahahaha!
(7) - weeee saya saya ko nito. ngssulatan kami sa paper. hahahaha. ang cute cuuuute x3
.. ayun nakatago pa rin yung paper na yun :]
- di aq nakaOL nito. pumunta kami ni mom & dad ng cal. state.. orientation para dun sa upward bound ko. hoho (8) - di pa rin aq nakaOL. 2 days na kong nagpapamiss /gg .. pero nung health may ginawa qng something sa papel.. hehe. nagustuhan nya. ayun inarbor at itinago :D xmpre kilig naman si ako. lol.
(9) - angas oh! natagpuan na ang kanyang mahiwagang. ano. hahahaha. - waaaaaa napunit yung papel na kng san kami nagsulatan. "pinunit KO" daw. sabi nya. haha. ayun tinape ko. para masaya ^^
- lols tas nag drawing aq ng pusa. nilagyan ko isang cheek lang ung may whiskers

xa: "bat isa lang?"
aq: "eeeh! para cute x3" _natawa xa eh. :)

- may binigay rin xa saken. weee. yung lyrics nung song na pinaalam nya saken na nagustuhan ko. hehe. tapos dun sa baba nung page may malaking SHIELA tpos may hug emoticon. weee.

- ayan nkaOL na ko. hahahaha. grabe ung "WAAAA" na sinend nya saken. tas ang banat nya:

"ngppamis ka kse =("
"2 days :("
"lam mo naman na eepekto yun eh :D"

.. wee medjo nagkakabistuhan na kami nito. hahaha.
.. saya ng chat namin nung araw na toh. kinapa namin yung lyrics nung pareho naming gustong song :]
.."hug nalang kita.. bawal humindi"..
.. knkilig ako. shyet. hahaha.
.. "pag ako nang gigil sayo!" .. ok kinikilig na tlga ko =))

.. nagsimula na dito yung mga tanong nya na: "tanga ba ko?"
.. aq naman tong sumagot na: "may mga bagay na mnsan di mo pedeng kontrolin eh.. or di mo mgggwan ng paraan para pigilan yun. mnsan naiicp natin kasalanan natin yun.. tpos iicpn natin tanga taio.."
.. ayun. blackmailin daw ba ko?! pag nagpagutom daw ako di nya ko kakausapin. haha
- si tito milo dumating. hehe nag dinner kami sa labas. family night again :]

(10) - .. oh dito na rin nagsimula na xa si :3 at ako si x3
.. hehe ^____^
- last night napanaginipan ko kaming dalawa. magkayakap dun sa ilalim nung punong gusto ko. yung violet x3
.. ang cute cute niya non. grabe.

"kulit nating dalawa hayy"
"tapos magpapamiss ka na naman"

.. ui kilig na naman. :))
.. halos lahat ng cnasabi sa chat meron ng heart. wuhahaha :))
- umalis kami ni mama nito. punta LA. shopping shopping x3
- nung gabi naman. pagkarating ko..
.. banat nya kagad sken: "i miss you"
.. shyet. sinong hindi kikiligin. --.

(11) - aga ko gumising nito. dapat sasamahan niya ko magsimba. --.

"pero po ttry ko tlga kasi gus2 ko din po makasama ka ^_^"

.. oha oha. knkilig ang loka. hahahaha
.. pogo. mag-isa ko nagsimba. di nya ko nasamahan magsimba --.
.. pero sabi nya. babawi xa sken kinabukasan sa school. /gg nyahaha :]
.. tanong xa ng tanong kung kumain na ba ako. tapos sabi nya:

"pasensya tanong ako ng tanong ah nag aalala lang"

.. hanep. :))
.. ayun after magsimba. pagkarating ni dad. bumili kami flowers & card for mom. mother's day po ngayon :]
.. tas nagdinner sa lucky china
_ yung lang! :p

-* ok end ko na blog entry ko dito. the next blog entries would be the continuations. masyado na kasing mahaba eh.. :)

.. sunday! XD

.. roar! sunday night again! tomorrow will be another week =)
.. this week made me nuts ahaha.. roar, but still, it worked all so fine =)
.. rawr.. ok na kami ni kuya chok =) wahaha iyakan pa eh.
.. weee, ok na ren kami ni.. wee <3 time =")" hir =")" week =")">

_pishbolera
.. roar bglang tugtog Angel Of Mine
.. wahaha <3

.* Love notes

.. stig toh
.. la lng la mgwa XD
.. gusto toh ni Josh haha

Love notes

There may be times when we become so miserable and ask ourselves why God allows us to experience unbearable pain. God doesn’t delight in our misery. Pain is God’s way of purifying us and making us better persons. And when He allows us to experience it, it doesn’t mean that He doesn’t love us.

You may destined to love the man who cannot love you back, but doesn’t mean that life ends here. You fell in love with a man who cannot be yours, but that doesn’t mean there is no one who can be. You have loved and hurt badly, but that doesn’t mean the pain will never pass.

Everything that happens to us happens for a reason, and as the saying goes, sometimes the person who makes you happy is the same person who can hurt you and make you cry. It’s perfectly alright to feel sorry for losing him, but you cannot be sorry all your life. It is okay to cry yourself to sleep at night, but you cannot shed your tears for him forever. You cannot cry every night all your life. It is okay to think of him when you wake up in the morning, but you cannot let him take control of your thoughts forever.

You been sorry long enough. You have shown so much regret already. You have to accept that there could never be any “you and I” anymore. He is gone and has moved on with his life. You have to realize that you should not allow yourself to be left behind following his shadow. You have to move on and find your own happiness, even if it means not being with him.

Let us always remember that love isn’t love it if doesn’t hurt. And it is better to be hurt by love than not to be hurt because we were afraid to love. The only way to move on is to accept reality. And it will help if you let the pain love has brought you make you a stronger person, and let the tears that you cried wash away the bitterness and misery in your heart.

Love notes by Joe d' Mango

.. hekhek ^^.v
.. laugh !! or else >:)

.. i love you & i mean it

. January 26, 2k7-Tuesday- .

*wlang mgwa*
..kktpos lng maglro ng audition
..san ka pa
..hbang ngllro
..umiiyak
..wtf?!
..weird q tlga kht kelan
..abnormal
..haayz
..nag deal p nga kmi eh
..last game na dw
..pg ntalo dw ako
..m22log na q
..nnalo q
..tas aftr non
..nag exit aq kgd sa game
..haayz
..
...* c r y i n ' * ...

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I've been living my life
Trying to get you out of my mind
But after all this time
I can't help myself but miss you

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You're the reason for my sleepless nights
Because you keep staying on my mind
I can't help myself from crying
Because I'm missing you so much

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All the pain & sadness are trapped inside my heart
All the memories are still preserved in my mind
I miss you so much
Because I can't hide the fact that I am still in love with you

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Ten years from now i may not remember
what we did those niqhts or what made
us lauqh so hard.. but i will remember
you were the ONE who was there

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Do I still have a place in your heart?
Like you do in mine?

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..dont hate me for what im doing
..i just really miss you

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..~_ozshi\/nineteen_~..

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"Where there is LOVE there is LIFE."
- Mahathma Gandhi

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"It is best to LOVE WISELY, no doubt; but to LOVE FOOLISHLY is BETTER than NOT to be able to love at all."
- William Thackeray

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.:*ozshi\/nineteen*:.
..still loving & crying in silence..