Lesson Learned ... ?

I'm on my random thinking again.
It's 12:06am and obviously, I'm still awake.
I was told by several people to sleep early, but yet I disobeyed them, again. LOLOL.

I just finished watching some video clips from eketc's channel in Youtube.
I was trying to store this one dance routine in my head, and I think it's becoming more of a headache. o.O

Well as my youtubing continues, I clicked this video that has a title of "Urban Legends: Mari Martin" it was one good dance, sort of' difficult though. So yeah I watched it and the song caught me.
I couldn't catch up on listening for the lyrics so I just looked up on the comments and saw the title of the song.
It was called "Lesson Learned" by Alicia Keys.

I listened to it as I read the lyrics.
I was devoured by the lyrics.
The music stopped then I played it again, then I went to my Friendster account.

As I listen to the song over and over, (it's actually still playing up to now)
I read some of the messages I sent him.
The messages that he still haven't read yet.
I sent it to an account I made and will hopefully give to him one day.

I felt silly as I read the messages, knowing the fact that he doesn't even know anything about it.
Not even a single clue.
I felt stupid as I listen to the song. Lesson Learned.

Haven't I still got the lesson? It's been six months.. Cold six months. It's actually close to seven.
Six months, and still.. It breaks my heart.

♪ ~ Mistake overturned so I called it a lesson learned ~ ♪
♪~ My soul has retuned so I call it a lesson learned ~ ♪
- Alicia Keys

And still, I believe I haven't learned the lesson yet.
There are still missing pieces.

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But it's funny how I never regretted for it.
To love someone you're not supposed to.
To change yourself completely for that someone.
To just keep holding on when you're suppose to let go.
To keep on loving until it hurts--regardless of the fact that you feel helpless and hopeless.
I will never have any regrets for it. Never.

"Love until it hurts, that's the real meaning of sacrifice."
- Fr. Demi Bugayong

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Well it takes time; just like my loving cousin always told me. Love you couz' :]
_pishbolera

♪~ Nasa aking guniguni malamig mong tinig ~♪
♪~ Kasabay ng hangin na dumarampi ~♪
♪~ Na para bang ika'y nariyan sa aking paligid ~♪
♪~ Tahimik na nagmamasid ~♪
- SpongeCola

Gerard Anthony Morales Matel.
radz:3
i miss you.