The balance of the opposites.

I remember seeing myself in the mirror wearing the biggest smile I could ever think of.
I remember daydreaming about things; that that by that time, were not too far from reality.
I remember praying that one night and giving thanks for having an astonishingly wonderful day.
I was crying that time, I was too happy.

And then that "too much" warned me.
I remembered that it always happens that such thing could never last for long, no matter how high my hopes were wishing that euphoria will stay as long as I wanted it.

I got it right. Wow. As if it couldn't be predicted.

The mirror cracked and brought back the melancholic smile I used to have.
Dreams are now a billion miles away from reality.
The prayer filled with happiness was replaced with a prayer pleading for another day filled with joy and excitement.
Happiness became misery.

"Man cannot stay in a positive state forever.
This would become his normal state, and wouldn't feel happy anymore."
--ezinearticles.com

Is this fair?
I wasn't even close to forever.
Is a blissful month enough for an empty year?
Am I sure that it was only a year?

But, I am going to get through this, right?
I've been here way too many times now.
But I guess the pain just keeps on getting worse.
And it starts to get tiring now.

Will my every chance of happiness will always lead to something like this?
Well if that's the case, I am willing not to take another shot.

_pishbolera

.. happiness starts from within =)

.. roar. e2 kggcng ko lang halos huwahaha. ampf mgkkasakit yata ko. rooooooooar.

- before nmin pnta SM 7:30am - 12noon ang tulog ko. tas ayun SM mode. sa wakas nkpag shopping ulet haha. ampz ilang oras din kaming nkatayo. roar. oh yess bumili ng pishbol! wahaha. ayun.

- pgdating dito, rest muna tpos 12mn meh happy happy. @_@. kwentuhan lang kami ni ate cielo horror stories. amp may isa xang nkwento bgla kaming ngtakbuhan pra pmsok sa bahay =).

- err ayun 5am na ko na2log. grbe pagod. as in PAGOD

- ay etoh nga pala. mgllgay na q ng quote of the week compilation. update q yun every 3 weeks.

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- hmm. ang daming taong hndi pa nkkpag move on noh? ppl who can't accept that bad events has just touched their lives. mrami. mrami aqng kilalang gnyan. kexo martyr yta xa. or hndi nya kayang bitawan.

- errr. ewan pero nde q kse msabi sa knya toh eh.

- susme. ano ba?! ang tali-talino mong tao ngppkatanga ka dun. sows.

- alam mo. khit mmtay pa xa. or what. iwan ka man nya. or whatever, IIKOT PA RIN ANG MUNDO
.. susme. pnhhirapan mo lang sarili mo. oo na oo na. ssbhin mo saken hndi ko alam ang feeling. SOWS, trust me, alam ko. mhirap tlga. pero kng iisipin mong iikot pa ren ang mundo kahit anong mngyari senyo, kaya mong mkpag move on.
.. alam mo, bitawan mo na xa. hindi mo lang alam na kutsilyo na pla yang hnhwakan mo. tsk tsk, mlaking sugat yan. err. bsta. eh ewan ko sayo

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.. lolx tinopak na nmn aq wahaha
.. wahaha cge cge =)
:: real & lasting happiness starts from withing ourselves ::
.. smile always =)
_malditang pishbolera_