A bad combination.

I did something stupid exactly a week ago.

Didn't have enough sleep + my period + runny rose + emotions and other stuffs I've been keeping to myself + a banned beer.

It was a friend's birthday and there was a beer pong session going on. I watched and didn't have any plan of joining because I didn't know how and I will be driving home. Still, stupid me ended up playing because I was asked to join and somehow, I wanted to try. I was thinking, "How bad can it be? It's just beer."
I ignored the fact that it is a banned brand of beer.

So we played and I couldn't even shoot at least once. It was embarrassing to them, and especially to my game partner. Sheesh.

Everything in sight started to become shaky and slowmo. I felt like I was floating. I actually liked it. It's been a while since the last time I felt something like that.
Honestly, I was aware of everything that was happening. It's just that, for some reason, I can't control myself and it felt good to open up and say out loud what I was thinking.

Oh, have I mentioned that HE was there?

Yea, it was stupid... I was stupid. I even said something stupid to make him feel bad but, I was careless not to put in mind that I would actually hurt somebody else's feelings. Up to now, I still don't know how I'd approach that person.
Next time, I have to remind myself not to drink if I have too much going on inside my head. Or at least I should just go drink alone like how I've always been used to.
Ah, what a mess. I'm a mess.