Superwoman~

now playing:
Superwoman by Alicia Keys

I wonder if Dad could hear what the song is saying.

"For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come"

Homaigaaally.
July 12 is the day I'll be moving in dorm for 4weeks.
I don't know if I'm excited or worried.
Excited = coz' I'd be out of the house and wouldn't feel the awkward situation.
Worried = coz' I wouldn't be here to look out for my Mom.

This ... sucks.
I don't know if 'separation' is the only key to this.
I. am. confused.
Oh well, I'd give it all up to our good Lord.
He knows what's best.

_pishbolera.

shit happens.

Oh well.
They had a fight again.
My Dad even hammered his cellphone. [Did I use the correct term? lol?]
Coz' that's the reason of their argument, as always.
For those who are confused, coz' you see, my Dad had this 'love affair' with another woman while we were still in the Philippines. An incident I don't really want to discuss in my public blog.

So yea, I locked myself inside the bathroom.
Turned on the shower, so it'll cover up my noise. The noise that'll come out when I cry.

It was, painful.
I felt that my body started to get numb, starting from my head, then down to my hands, then down to every part of my body.
I thought I was going to collapse.

Right now, I put on my headphones and put any hard/twisted metal songs (songs that I have never heard before; songs that I can't even understand what the lyrics are O.o) while typing this.

I remember what Tine and I talked about a few nights ago.
I told her what my reason is for always preferring to be awake the whole night when they are all asleep; and sleep whenever they are all awake.
I want silence.